In February of 2013, at night on Valentine's Day my husband and I went into L&D (didn't even know what that was since we were to tour the hospital that coming Sunday) after our doctor had told us to come in from my concern of a phone call of trying a few different ways to get Maggie to move and I still wasn’t getting any response.
"I am sorry, there is No heartbeat." Echoed in the already silent room.
We just had a 36 weeks checkup, just days prior, everything was perfect! A great first pregnancy all normal...text book so to speak.
Little did we know our normal was much more normal for 1 in 4 women have the same statement said to them.
After our own doctor confirmed everything and there truly was no signs of life within my womb, we were induced.
That process is foggy to me, the steps that we took were helped with the most amazing nursing staff, delivery doctor. A beyond amazing nurse named, Debbie that is the bereavement coordinator in the hospital. Without them, their support, our church and family we wouldn't be here today.
Magdelena "Maggie" Eileen Mae Turner was born sleeping into heaven on February 16, 2013 at 36 weeks and 2 days.
More beautiful than I could have ever imagined.
Our time spent with Maggie was never going to be long enough, as I said before the staff were great. I didn't know what I should or shouldn't do. What others thought I should or shouldn't do. I regret nothing, but I did miss out on things I "could" have done to make more memories.
We elected to do testing as our Doctors recommend since there were no obvious signs of way Maggie was born still. Unexplained stillbirth is what came of all our testing. That can bother many people, but with God lighting our path, that didn't get to us. That doesn't matter. Even if we did have an answer that wouldn't change what had happened.
Maggie became a light to me in the darkness of losing her, she still shined. I wanted to see my child again, I wanted to be able to love on her forever. God promised that to me. A month and one day later I was baptized, by my Brother in Law (Not known to many He came and sat in the dark on the floor of the hospital during the entire time Kevin and I in were there, down in the ditch where no one wants to be but he was the constant pillar of strength that we needed).
With all that happened God's promise and grace, Maggie's Light LLC came to life in honor of our Maggie's life.
"In our own storm of darkness, we found a way to shine our daughters light." -Emily Turner (Maggie's Mommy)
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